This morning, the preacher talked about the beatitudes (from Matthew 5), especially verse 6:
“Blessed are those that hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied” (NASB)
To hunger and thirst for righteousness. That’s an amazing thought. Most of the time, I have to push myself to read the Bible. Most of the time, I have to push myself to take the time and really thing about my own behavior, my own attitudes.
Yes, writing draws me, because I have to write. It’s just something I do. It’s been a substantial part of my self-identity for as long as I can remember. But I do not really hunger and thirst for righteousness. I honestly don’t hunger and thirst for much.
And I got to thinking: why? Why don’t I hunger and thirst for righteousness?
Honestly, I think it’s for the same reason I have trouble getting any school work or writing done after I come home from work: I get distracted.
Now, part of the “distraction” is my wife. But she’s not really a distraction, she’s my wife. Spending time and attention with her is a top priority. But other things distract me, too.
Earlier, I said I was selling my X-Box 360 to raise money for World Vision. I’ve sold a couple of games so far, and raised $13, and I’m pretty sure I’ve found a buyer for the system itself, which will raise more.
Thinking about the X-Box and how much I get distracted, and how easily I get sucked into a game if I do start playing one, I started to say “I’m selling ALL my video game systems. This is taking up too much of my time!”
Yeah. Okay. Am I shutting off the Internet? ‘Cause I waste a lot more time on the Web than I do on video games in an average week. Am I going to shut that off? I write a BLOG. Am I going to shut off the TV service (not for two years: we just signed a contract with DirecTV)?
The point is, the game systems aren’t the problem. The TV isn’t the problem. I Can Has Cheezburger is not the problem. I am the problem.
I have a problem managing my time and priorities in a way that is truly Godly. I have a problem focusing on that which is perfect, that which gives glory to God.
I want the distractions. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because true contemplation and communion with God is hard. Maybe it’s because real study brings me up against things I don’t like. Maybe, maybe, maybe…
We all have thorns in our flesh. This is one I need to struggle against. I need to learn to fight the distractions. Only by fighting back can we learn to love righteousness, can we learn to hunger and thirst for it. And only then will our hunger be satisfied.